I am mere hours away from discovering Nathanael's Birthday. Word's can not express my love and gratitude to my Savior!! God's grace and love are the only reason I am so close to completing the family I've always dreamed of. Since I truly came back to The Lord in July My life has changed so much and so has my family's. I had a rough life until I married Raymond,and I let that define me for so long that I had no idea who I was without it. I never thought I'd be able to completely forgive the people who had hurt me in so many ways,but I did it. I never could have done it without God,and now I am free of that hold they had over me. I am slowly becoming someone new everyday. Someone who isn't afraid to get hurt or fail at something,because I know my heavenly Father will be there to catch me. I'm not afraid to be alone with myself anymore,because now when I have a moment to just reflect on my life it is a beautiful thing. I could gripe about finances,but when it comes down to it God has provided for us and I am so grateful.
I know to some the word miracle seems cheesy or crazy religious,but I know God works miracles still to this day....because I'm alive! Despite an effort I took to end my life,which at the time I thought was worth nothing, in Sept 2008... I am here. I know God still works miracles, because I see it everyday when I look into the eyes of my daughter! She is more than enough proof for me.I will never doubt His power and love ever again. Since I was saved at age 14 I knew He was powerful and loving and forgiving. Yet I let others convince me that all those qualities didn't apply to me. I was too low and undeserving. Not anymore I know that I have things to offer to bring God glory.And I am discovering them and more about myself daily!
He gave me a beautiful little girl(and soon a lil boy) to look after and love! If there is a greater "job" than being a mother I've never heard of it!!! I am so blessed to watch my lil girl change right before my eyes. It seems like she is different everyday(she really could slow down some though lol). She may be a little too independent:) I've gotten some pretty awesome gifts from family and friends,but nothing compares to all the things God has done for me and my family! I get to see my husband transform into an even more amazing man. I didn't even think it was possible! He has been such a blessing in my life...he is truly my best friend.
He also led us to the church we now feel is home! I don't know where we'd be without Harvest and the wonderful people we've met there. We would be at a standstill in our walks with our savior. Raymond and I have grown so much as Christians with the help of this church. I never thought I'd see my husband so hungry for God's word and fellowship with other Christians. And it had been so long since I had craved the same thing:) It's amazing how much seeking God out helps you find your way in every other aspect of your life!!
