So was looking for a book in the garage and after digging through 3 boxes I found my old journal instead. I read a few of the poems I had written before God brought Raymond back into my life and decided to share. These poems truly show how dark life can be. No I am not a poet, but these are a perfect example of the pain I was feeling at the time. I never thought they would be worth anything so I never named them. Well now they are a priceless reminder of the pain God has delivered me from! Praise God for His Faithful love!
Poem 1:
Anger sweeps through my veins,
Almost as necessary as the blood itself,
That anger keeps me safe,
It keeps my delicate heart from shattering,
It keeps my balance in check,
It gives me something to feel,
It keeps me from realizing where I've failed,
I just want to be happy again.
Poem 2:
What is it about me,
That makes me so easily replaced,
Is it the way I smile,
Or the way I laugh,
Is it the way I kiss,
Or maybe the way I touch,
Is it the way I care,
And strive for love,
Maybe it's my awkward nature,
Or the way my thoughts take me over,
Maybe I was made wrong,
Maybe I was God's one mistake.
Poem 3:(At the turning point but a long way from whole)
Where were you,
When my childhood was stripped away,
Where were you,
When I was crying everyday,
Where were you,
When I married the wrong man,
Where were you,
When I ran out of plans,
The true question is,
Where was I,
My heart knew no love,
Like that of your truth,
My mind knew no wisdom,
Like that in your book,
My life knew no meaning,
Like that which you give,
My world without you,
Was no place to live,
My life was forever changed,
When I finally got out of my own way.
I was gonna post a couple more, but well they were a bit graphic. Still these get the point across I think. Praise God I know longer have to feel this way!!
