On Dec 6th,2011 my son Nathanael Dale Grubbs was born! Thus God has completed my family. I am now a mommy of two beautiful children. Ofcourse it could've gone a bit smoother in the beginning. Again I found myself in the hospital with my baby after being released. Nathan wasn't eating enough and couldn't keep his temperature up. So, yet again I had to see my baby hooked up to IVs. It's heart breaking especially after having prayed the entire time you were pregnant for things to be different.
My pregnancy was extremely painful,but I didn't care because I just wanted my lil ones journey into the world to be a smooth one. Unfortunately that wasn't the case. He was breach so when I went to the hospital in labor that morning I knew I was looking at a C Section. I was perfectly content with that. I knew well over a month before the day that it would mostly likely be that way. So mentally I was totally prepared. It wasn't bad either I was up and walking around in half the usual time. I was determined to get home asap. I missed my lil girl! No my pain is something I can just suck it up and deal with,but when it comes to my children. The last thing I wanted was to see my lil one poked and prodded again. On top of all that when we got home from the hospital I was sick and so were both of my lil ones. We battled it for about 3 weeks!
Praise God for getting me through it though! As hard as it was (Especially the whole not sleeping for well over 24 hrs) my baby boy is home and healthy,and his big sister is back to her normal mischievous self again. Now my daily struggle is clouded by a different sickness. Yep...again I'm battling postpartum depression. Luckily I was able to recognize the symptoms and get help much sooner this time around. I know that the prayer of my friends and family along with my Dr's help I will get through this and finally get back to my normal self. It's not an easy thing to wait for though. Some days I just feel so out of it. Like I'm just going through the motions. But not a day goes by that God doesn't give me moments that just make my heart burst with love and laughter. Like my sons lil smiles. Or Catie's quirky lil habits. She really is a hilarious child. For all the things that I have faced in my life God has been there whether I acknowledged it at the time or not! I am so blessed to have such a loving Heavenly Father!!!
So,here I am the stay at home mommy of a 21m/o and a 1m/o. It's not easy,but it is oh so worth it. I can't imagine my life with out my children and husband. It would be a dark life indeed!
Love your blog girl!
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